Crap.

Liliya puked during the night and didn't cry or yell or get up to tell me. So I found it this morning. I followed my nose. The girls room smelled very sour. Crap.

Ick.

I woke up about 5am feeling gross. I've been incredibly incredibly nauseous all day. My stomach is in knots. I've been in the bathroom half of the day. Crap.

I managed to choke down a small bowl of soup.

Then I took a nap.

Then I managed to eat half a bagel.

I'm functioning, I can do what I have to do to take care of the kids.

But I don't feel well. At all.

So I can't take the boys tonight. We've postponed our weekend with them until Sunday night into Monday afternoon. I miss them :o(

I've got soooo much to do.

I went outside for about half an hour and tried to shovel. I got *one* side of my van un-buried. The snow was literally up to the door handles. There is no place else to put the snow. It's over 4 feet high in the front yard, it's so high that when you toss more snow up onto the pile, it just rolls back down the other side.

Right now, I just want to cry. I feel like crap, I can't get anything done, and I'm not enjoying being a Mama at the moment. Which makes me feel even more like crap.

Crap.